Falling up, and spiraling down.
The Beta Theta Pi Red Dragon Formal was a huge success. I had a wonderful time, and I hope that all of my brothers and their guests had an equally amazing time! I will definitely be looking forward to next year's formal.
On a less happy note, I feel disconnected from myself. I feel as if a piece of me is missing. Very recently, my heart was raised to the highest level it has been at in a while, then thrown violently into a downward spiral of pain. I know there is something wrong with me that is aiding in causing all of this, but I can't figure out what it is to save my life.
I just don't understand anything right now. I need some time to put things back together and return to what I once was: A man, not this scared little boy that I feel like. I'll stick to the shadows for a while, but I'll be back.
Everyone's heart is a different color, or so they say... Mine is black, for now. I'm confident it will be back to normal soon.

