I've moved into my apartment! The only thing that sucks about it is the fact that I can't go home until next weekend, so I don't have a bed, dresser, or a desk. We'll see how comfortable the floor is.
Godsmack - Keep Away
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I've moved into my apartment! The only thing that sucks about it is the fact that I can't go home until next weekend, so I don't have a bed, dresser, or a desk. We'll see how comfortable the floor is.
Godsmack - Keep Away
There's nothing really new since my last blog post, except that I got fucked by my Managing Criminal Justice Organizations exam, and totally dominated the listening part of my Spanish exam.
I've decided to update my blog everyday, with most of them being a quick thought or two with a song, and a few of them actually being an in-depth thought or about something going on in my life.
I've been on a Local H tangent lately, so I thought this one was worth sharing. It pretty much describes my thoughts as of right now. Dig it.
Local H - No Problem
Well, it's the final stretch. Three more exams to go, and I'll be done with my second year. On Friday I am moving out of the dorms (forever!), and into my apartment. It's going to be awesome. I am so ready for it. I feel like I'm taking another huge leap towards independence.
My summer will consist of working the night shift as a CSO several nights of the week, and hopefully not being too bored during the day. There will be plenty of friends around, so I'm not too concerned about it. My brother Derek and I just planned a road trip out to Minneapolis to see a Tool concert and to see our brother Nick who is moving back there. That will be an awesome weekend.Also, I finally sold my truck! It was my first vehicle and a hell of a beast, so I will definitely miss it. I'm sure the Toyota Avalon will treat me nicely though.
Local H - How's the Weather Down There?
I am proud to have four new brothers within the Zeta Zeta Chapter of Beta Theta Pi! They're four of the best guys we've picked up in a long time.
This weekend was the best weekend I've had all year. I've never had so much fun in one weekend. I have become very close with one of my new brothers, and it's really awesome. Each night this weekend was spent with them. For the most part, the men within my fraternity are the best that I know. They are true scholars and gentlemen, and I am so ecstatic that I can be included in such a great brotherhood.
Only two more full weeks of this semester!
Tool - Parabola
I wouldn't talk to you tonight. I wouldn't even look at you.
I've realized that you let me go so you could go out and do your own thing, hang out with other people, and experiment with other people, and I would be that nice guy that you could fall back to when things didn't go your way.
You meant so much to me. I thought you were amazing and an awesome human being. I don't know if this still stands or if I felt this way because you were the first person to make me feel needed and like I mattered to someone. I had been lonely my entire life, and then you came around and fixed that. Well, I'm back to square one.
Just look back and think about what you've lost: A wonderful, nice, caring guy who is few and far between. Think of me when you can't find another one.
Muse - Blackout
Three more weeks until the semester is over! I'm so excited. I feel everybody should experience the dorm life for a year, but two years is just pushing it. I have several papers due this week, but once they're finished, the hard part of the semester will be over.
This week is Beta week! Beta week was the most fun, challenging, and most memorable week of my life. I hope the pledges enjoy it as much as I did. I'm not going to have time for anything with all of the rituals and events we have going on. I'm super bummed that I have to miss initiation on Friday because of work. Oh well, I'll just do my best to make it to all of the other events.
This is the best voice-over video I have ever seen.
The Goo Goo Dolls - Feel the Silence
This past weekend was pretty good. I spent some quality time with my brothers on Friday night, and I am continuously getting closer to one of our new pledges. For some reason, whenever I go to the house on the weekend, my brothers line up to wrestle me. I'm not sure what the deal is. I'm going to have to postpone the wrestling until my rugburn heals. I worked an extremely boring patrol shift last night, then went to Relay for Life. That was even more boring, so I ditched.
It's weird. Even after all the shit that has happened, I can't get a certain someone out of my head. But after a conversation I had with one of my brothers Friday night, I've finally come to terms with the harsh reality. I'll continue to think "maybe someday...yeah, maybe someday."
Matchbox 20 - The Difference
This week has been exceptional. I've spent a lot of time with my brothers and one of my closest friends. The only thing bringing me down this week is Spanish. It's really starting to bone my GPA. I have a Spanish exam at 12:40 and then my real brother is coming up! I can't wait to see him.
After high school, I came inches away from signing my life away to the Marine Corps. I wanted to serve my country and gain experience that would certainly help me out with my police profession later on. I attended many poole functions, including physical training exercises and going to the rifle range to fire M16s. I got to know some of the recruiters pretty well. Then the time came where I would be sitting in the recruiter's office with the enlistment papers in front of me and a pen in my hand, and the tip of the pen on the signature line. At that point, I decided I needed a little more time to think about it and talk to my parents. My parents said they would support whatever I decided to do, but they would have preferred it if I did one year of college just to see if I like it. So that brings me to now. Obviously, I've decided to stick with college. In fact, I'm almost done with my second year, which is twice as long as I expected to be here. I guess I just couldn't leave behind what I had already achieved: a year of school behind me, my brothers and the fraternity, and a handful of irreplaceable people. Yes, there have been several times where I've looked at myself in the mirror and thought "Jake, you fucking idiot. Why didn't you just join the Marines so you wouldn't have to deal with this shit." Everyone who was faced with the decision of serving their country and turned it down will regret it sometime in their life. In the end, I think the decision I made was the best one.
Look at this stupid old woman.
Really heavy shit: Mudvayne - Determined.
In 1997, my mother took me to movie theater to see the newly released special edition version of Star Wars: A New Hope. As a 7 year old boy, I thought it was the coolest thing I had ever seen and immediately fell in love with it. She would continue to take me to see The Empire Strikes Back and The Return of the Jedi.
I usually don't flaunt the fact that I'm a huge Star Wars nerd because it's usually a huge turn-off for many people. But, seeing as my closest friends are the only people reading this blog and probably already know this, I don't see any harm in making this post. My interest in Star Wars does not interfere with my personal or social life like some people out there. That would just be downright ridiculous.
Over the years I would continue to widen my collection of Star Wars novels and expand my knowledge on all things Star Wars. My best friend growing up was as into it as I was, and I've actually met a friend here in Oshkosh who loves it as much as I do.
My favorite episode would have to be The Empire Strikes Back. The battle of Hoth, Dagobah, Cloud City, the presence of Boba Fett, the duel between Luke and Darth Vader, the climax where Vader reveals that he is Luke's father...I could go on and on. Speaking of Boba Fett, he is the most badass motherfucker from anything, ever.
Here is a clip from The Empire Strikes Back. This is my favorite scene from any of the movies. It's a dramatic scene where Han Solo is being frozen in carbonite and taken by Boba Fett so he can collect his bounty.
HIM - Your Sweet Six Six Six
My life took a 180 degree turn today. The past week has been the most unenjoyable experience of my life, and now that it's over I can breathe a sigh of relief. I can't describe how happy I am right now.
Today's topic: My future career. People always ask me: Why do you want to be a police officer? Why would you want to put your own life on the line to protect others and enforce the country's laws? Watch these videos:
These videos are hard to watch, and haunt me every time. I know that could be me someday. I know my life could be over in a split second without any time to react, without a chance to say goodbye to my family and friends and tell them I love them. But that doesn't stop me. All I can do is rely on my training to help keep me alive. I've always seen myself as someone who is willing to help others and serve my community, and I honestly cannot see myself doing anything else with my life. I want to put people away who don't have the same opinions.
I know the chances of being in a shootout are slim, but I will always have to assume the worst will happen. I most likely won't have to deal with it being an officer in a small sized city. However, if I ever make the leap to a big city and work with SWAT or the DEA, each day on the job will be especially dangerous. It doesn't change anything.
All I can do is do my job and hope people appreciate it.